Wednesday, April 20, 2022

550. Foodie

 Yes, I am at times a foodie, but aren't we all?  Right now I crave

  • prune juice
  • English muffins
  • raisins in plain yogurt
The first is a new craving, the secønd a memory, and the third a new discovery.  But these replace foods I have long consumed but now reject ss boring:
  • kale and collards
  • triple-washed baby spinach salad greens
  • apples
  • bananas
But in my travels I have encountered marvels:
  • French goat cheese (chèvre)
  • French babas au rhum (sponge cake topped with whipped cream and a cherry)
  • Italian pasta (almost any kind)
  • Mexican pineapple (piña)         .            
  • Mexican flan
Yes, they can be found here, but it's not the same.

In eating, I am a child of the Midwest, where corn is plentiful. In late summer I love to eat corn on the cob, with butter and salt dripping down my chin. Elegant?  No.  But earthy and fun.

Finally, a foodie quiz:
  1. What is the largest nut?
  2. What food from the New World was at first thought to be an aphrodisiac in England and called a "love apple"?
  3. What common fruit, when introduced in the US in the 1930s. brought complaints from housewives that, no matter how long they cooked it, the skin or rind remained tough?
  4.  What language do "potato"and "tomato" come from?
I'll give the answers in the next post.  Meanwhile, fellow foodies, enjoy your meals.

Sunday, April 10, 2022

549. Surviving in New York City

 Forgive another personal anecdote.  My leg seemed to have a problem -- little bumps. No pain or itching, just little bumps.  But this was the leg whose infection sent me to the hospital recently, so a council of war ws called.  To make sure no new infection was involved, I and a select group of friends called 911 to have my vital signs checked.  And 911 came -- four husky guys with all kinds of equipment.  They checked those signs: normal.  With nothing for them to do, they left.  But a nurse was also summoned to check that suspect leg, and he repeated the vital signs check-up: normal.  

Boring, isn't it?  No crisis!  Bu there's a complication: at times I find myself beahing fast, slowing down only gradually to what is, for me, normal.  So there's lots for a doctor who makes house calls to consider.  But it will take a lot -- maybe four officers with a strait jacket -- to get me out of my beloved top-floor apartment, high above the Magnolia Bakery of "Sex and the City" fame.  I'm not ready for another hospital stay, and nobody will convince me that rehab centers are quieter and more restful than hospitals, when recent experience has taught me better.  So here I am, home again, entrenched, and hoping for better.  I love my apartment, my building, my neighbors, and the West Village, and will cling to the end.

The next post, I promise, will have no mention of me.





, for me, normal.  

Monday, April 4, 2022

548. Breaking Away

 



BREAKING AWAY.  A complete break, or a partial break.  


You do it because you are tired tired tired of what you are doing.  I did it after getting my Ph.D. in French.  I left New York for San Francisco and the tail end of the Beat scene, before the Hippie madness took over.  I was tired of Academia.


How about you?  Did you ever break away?  Do you want to now?  Tell us.  We will listen.




Sunday, March 27, 2022

547. My Bawdy, Genteel Party: Who Can Come and Who Can't


                        MY  PARTY

"Nobody kills a party like a genius,"said the great party-giver Elsa Maxwell, and she should know.  So no geniuses, at least if self-proclaimed.

So who can come?  I'll confine myself to writers, since we know, or think we know, them best.  

Chaucer, for one.  He had wide experience, and a great sense of humor, earthy and a bit naughty.

Who else?  The Greek playwright Aristophanes.  He imagined an airy republic of the birds up in Cloud Cuckoo Land, would surely keep us in stitches. 

Certainly our own Ben Franklin, who was witty and wise, and especially with the ladies, charming.  He charmed the French court of Louis XVI, helped us get our independence.

Speaking of ladies, how about some?  Madame de Sévigné, who wrote charming letters with a light touch.  And Jane Austen, of course.  

Any more Americans?  Surely Mark Twain, with tales of his travels.  And on a more serious note, Henry James, observant and worldly-wise, even if he uses ten words where three will do.

Who can't come?  Milton: too sure of himself and everything.  La Rochefoucauld: his Maxims, reducing everything to self-love, are too jaded, too sour.  Dr. Johnson: a dyed-in-the-wool Tory, unflinchingly conservative.  And Romantic poets generally: too weepy, too self-involved.

Shakespeare?  Yes, though we don't really know him; we know his works.  And Moliere, who knew lot about human nature.

That's enough, you get the idea.  And you, my readers, are invited, too.  A great time will be had by all.



Sunday, March 20, 2022

546. We Lived Richly

The closing paragraph of the online memoir I will soon send 

to the Gay History Archive on 13th Street:   


So ends my story.  On Thursday, March 17, 2022, I donated Bob’s diaries, correspondence, and photo albums to the Gay Center on West 13th Street, for inclusion in their gay history archive.  None of it can be made public until ten years after my death.  This memoir will also go there.  This is a substantial collection that could someday be used in many ways.  In it there is much pain, joy, frustration, and realization.  We lived richly.  


Yes, we lived richly.

Sunday, March 13, 2022

545. Surviving Hospital Food and the Squawking Bitch

 


545.  Surviving Hospital Food and the Squawking Bitch

During my recent hospital and rehab center stay (see post 544),

I had many misadventures.  Among them:

  • Going to the hospital in the worst snowstorm in years, arriving in my new room at 3 a.m. 
  • Dealing with  the Squawking Bitch, a sadistic nurse's aide who -- unlike most of  the rehab staff -- made my life at times miserable.
  • Trying for four days to connect with an elusive  nurse practitioner, then giving it up, only to have her finally materialize and prove most helpful.
  • Dining with other inmates who, when one of them screamed for help, continued their quiet conversation (his screams were a daily occurrence).
  • Getting little sleep because of lights coming on at 3 a,m., clattering bedpans dropped in the hall, and nurses determined to get your vital signs at odd hours.
  • Funny moments alternating with horrors that I cannot bring myself to describe.

In spite of the above, I highly recommend both Lenox Hill Hospital and Village Care, the rehab center on Houston Street where I was treated.  They helped me a lot.


Sunday, January 23, 2022

543. Big Guys Who Don't Pay Taxes


BROWDERBOOKS


Sold 14 paperbacks of Fascinating New Yorkers and one of New Yorkers: A Feisty People last November and December, while advertising the first one in the New York Review of Books.  And two more of Fascinating New Yorkers in the first few days of January 2022 (maybe people using gift cards).  

Why then?  The holiday gift-giving season.  So it looks like my assumption was accurate: lots of my potential readers subscribe to NYRB.  But reader reviews on Amazon I'm not getting, and I could sure use some. 

My short story collection Wicked City is in the works, but my novel Panther Lady advances slowly -- I don't know why.




     BIG  GUYS  WHO  DON'T  PAY  TAXES


Yes, it's that time of year, when tax documents start clogging the mail, and tax accountants prepare for an avalanche of business.  

But not everyone pays taxes.  I'm not talking about the little guy who gets a tax break.  I mean corporations that rake in millions a year but quite legally don't pay taxes.

Thanks to an online study by the Institute on Taxation and Economic Policy, we know which of the big boys paid not a penny of income tax to the federal government in 2020 -- 55 corporations in all.  And most of them even got a tax rebate.  In other words, the government owed them money.  Among them:  

Consolidated Edison:  $1.2 billion in pre-tax income.  Plus a rebate of $2 million.

Fed Ex: $1.2 billion in pre-tax income.  Plus a rebate of $230 million.

Nike: $2.8 billion in pre-tax income.  Plus a rebate of $109 million.

And 52 others.  How do they do it?  

  • A tax break that lets companies write off executive stock- option related expenses that go far beyond expenses they report to investors.
  • The federal research and experimentation credit.
  • Tax breaks for renewable energy.
  • Depreciation tax breaks.

Maybe puzzling to the layman, but not to these companies' tax consultants.  Could these tax breaks be reduced or eliminated by the government?  Of course.  Will they be?  Not easily.  Such reforms don't interest many voters, concerned as they are with what affects them personally.  Tax reform for corporations just ain't sexy.

Source note:  This information comes from a report by the Institute for Taxation and Economic Policy, dated April 2, 2021, by Matthew Gardner and Steve Wamhoff, available online.

Sunday, January 9, 2022

542. Stingy Wednesday: The Answer to Giving Tuesday


              STINGY  WEDNESDAY

THE  ANSWER  TO  GIVING  TUESDAY


Giving Tuesday, the first Tuesday after Thanksgiving, brings out the Scrooge in me.  I do give to worthy nonprofits, who then give or sell my name to other worthy nonprofits.  Result: I am constantly bombarded by appeals for money.  

There is no way I could give to them all, but they keep after me with letters, ads, and phone calls, assuring me it is the right thing to do, since it will make for a better world.

These appeals have reached the point where I rebel. I know their game, and when approached, recognize it and turn savage.  Openings like these enrage me:

  • Last chance ...
  • Only 24 hours left ...
  • Act now! ...
  • Your gift will be doubled if you ...
Giving Tuesday indeed!  How about Giving Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday?  I am harassed on every day of the week, especially during the holidays.  What to do?

I propose that the Wednesday following Giving Tuesday become Stingy Wednesday, on which everyone vows to give not one cent to anyone.  Be selfish.  Read Ayn Rand.  Be a Scrooge.  Above all, keep in mind: There is no one to love you like yourself.  

And don't feel apologetic about it. Enjoy being a Scrooge.  It's fun.  And try to out-Scrooge everyone else.  That's fun, too.  Your ego will take wings and soar. Left behind: your tormentors, and all the cunning promoters of Giving Tuesday and their well-meaning, namby-pamby dupes.

File:George c scott as scrooge.jpg
attribution: Robert Doucette

 
©  2022  Clifford Browder




Sunday, January 2, 2022

541. War Is Sexy, Peace Is Not

   

            WAR IS SEXY, PEACE IS NOT


Long ago, on station WBAI (where else?), I heard a high priestess of the New Age declare, “We’ve got to make peace sexy!”  This inspired me to write a poem about peace that I now think is junk, but much lster I did another poem on the subject that may not be junk.  Here it is:


       Sexy


Wild is sexy, tame is not.

War is sexy, peace is not.

God is sexy, His worshipers are not,

Though Her worshipers would be for sure.

Death, mysterious, is sexy,

Dying, messy, is not. 

Gobbling junk food is sexy,

Health and healthy eating are not.

Stupid is sexy,

If brash, loud, and shocking.

Wisdom,

Calm and contained, is not.


For the sake of sanity, logic, 

And the well-being of a cosmos

Ever threatened by chaos,

We’ve got to make

Peace, health, and wisdom sexy,

Sexy as hell.



So there’s your assignment for the New Year: make peace, health, and wisdom sexy.  It will make for a better world.



©   2022  Clifford Browder


Sunday, December 26, 2021

540. Nocturne: A Goon Song


 NOCTURNE: A GOON SONG



Potatoes bleed

Under the ache

Of old empires,

And the moon

In skillets of joy

Rasps.


I cannot tell you

Of the loves of oranges

Or the death 

Of hope in fertilizer.


Mystical vacuum cleaners

Inconvenience tourists

In effete hotels.

Can paper clips survive?


I have dreamed

Of golden suppositories drifting

In a mauve gloom,

And passion sucked

From mouths no dentist penetrates.

Beware of beans.


How to evaluate

The kitty litter of rejuvenation,

Terror,

And the cracked skulls of birds?


The hair piece remembers,

The ax oozes,

The octopi advance.


It is time for the sharpening of knives.


Sunday, December 19, 2021

539. Mysteries


                            MYSTERIES


This post is about mysteries of communication and healing.  I’ll begin with the story of my only out-of-body experience.  It occurred while I and my partner Bob were vacationing on Monhegan Island, Maine, where we rented a cabin from our friend Barbara.  We had just srrived that morning and spent the day unpacking and getting groceries.  That night, heedng the bladder imperative, I went to the bathroom. There, suddenly, I sank quietly to my knees.  My mind was up somewhere in the air, observing with detachment my body, but my senses were not involved.  I wasn’t alarmed, just wondering why that body was on its knees.  Then Bob came, pulled me up, and helped me back to my bed.  We both went to bed but couldn’t sleep.  Something told me to tell Bob, “Open the windows.”  It was a mild, rainy night; he did. 

A little later we were still both awake, which was unusual, since we usually slept well on the island.  “Let’s go to Barbara’s,” I said.  So we went out in the rain, knocked on her door, and luckily found her still awake.  Hearing our story, she went to the cabin with Bob and turned the gas refrigerator off.  Meanwhile I flopped on a couch in her living room, and that night Bob and I both slept, or tried to sleep, at her place.

The next morning we all returned to the cabin, and Barbara called a handyman over.  He confirmed her suspicion: the gas refrigerator’s motor was caked with a slow accumulation of carbon and emitting carbon monoxide.  He scraped off the carbon, and all was fine.  So monoxide was the explanation of my out-of-body adventure.

A close call for Bob and me, and my only out-of-body experience ever.  What prompted me to have Bob open the windows, and then to suggest that we go to Barbara’s?  I don’t know, but both actions helped us survive.  And I was now more convinced than ever that experience can come to us other than through the senses.  I have argued this vehemently with atheist friends who cannot conceive of experiene other than through the senses.  Having heard accounts of near-death experiences, where someone comes back to life and tells what happens after death, I am convinced that I am right.


Even perception through the senses can have mystery.  Long ago, when I was teaching French at a Catholic university, I had a student named Patrick who took a trip to Europe.  He told me afterward of going to Italy to see the Padre Pio, a renowned Capuchin brother who would surely in time be made a saint.  He got to see him, and after one glance at his visitor the Padre said, “You are not in a state of grace.”  Which was true; Patrick had not been to confession while traveling.  How could the Padre tell?  I have no idea, but tell he could.  And posthumously he was indeed made a saint.


Communication can overcome the barrier of language.  In 1999 Bob and I traveled to Europe with our Monhegan friend Barbara.  In Florence, hearing from Bob of a shop that sold marbled paper, Barbara wanted to go there, so she could learn more about how it was done.  She hoped to do it and sell it in her gift shop on Monhegan.  She and I went, having little command of Italian, and knowing that the shopkeeper spoke no English.  But Bob had told us that he had a French wife and spoke French, so I cøuld translate.  The shopkeeper was glad to answer Barbara’s questions, which I translated into French, and I then translated his replies into English.  But after a while he could understand her questions without my translating, though I still translated his answers for Barbara, who learned all about oxblood (sang de boeuf), obtained from butchers and needed in the marbling process.  Thanks to the shopkeeper’s information, back on Monhegan she began making beautiful sheets of marbled paper that she could sell in her shop.


Another example:  My friend Lilith, whom I first met on Monhegan, had a new career after her kids were grown and she and her husband separated: she became a healer.  When she came every autumn to Monhegan, she had a list of islanders with chronic aches and pains whom she treated: no miracle cures, but they felt better afterward.  I got to know her, and she told me how she had become a pupil of a famous Zapotec woman healer.

Lilith went to Oaxaca, Mexico, knowing little Spanish, and aware that the Zapotec healer had no English.  When she saw the woman, they needed two translators: one for Zapotec into Spanish, and one for Spanish into English.  But by their third session, Lilith told me, they could dispense with translators; they understood each other perfectly, and Lilith learned a lot from the woman.  And when Lilith came away from their sessions, native people approached her and, thinking her a healer, too, begged her to heal them.  But Lilith, being at that point a mere pupil, did not attempt to do so.


The previous two examples of communication can perhaps be explained scientifically, so here is another story that, in my eyes, escapes the realm of science.  My friend Gary, hearing an interview in New York with the Dalai Lama, was very impressed by His Holiness’s answer, when asked if he could love the Chinese Communists, who had done him and his people so much harm.  “It is very difficult,” said the Dalai Lama, “but yes, I love them.”  This so impressed Gary that he resolved to go to India, where His Holiness lived in exile, to thank him in person for his ability to love his enemies.

He managed to go, and before he met the Dalai Lama, he had another extraordinary experience.  Attending a great public meeting with a famous guru, he sat in a section reserved for foreign visitors.  When the guru arrived, he walked down an aisle right beside where Gary was sitting.  For a moment their eyes met, and Gary felt energy passing from the guru into himself.  No miracle resulted, simply a transfer of energy.

I am not aware of any scientific explanation of such a phenomenon.  I have heard stories of healers and holy men touching supplicants, so that healing energy can pass into the supplicants.  Imagination, say skeptics, or the placebo effect.  If you think something or someone is helping you, you do in fact feel better — for a while.

Long ago I visited Lourdes and saw the wheelchairs, crutches, and canes discarded by people miraculously cured.  It’s hard to dismiss all those healings as temporary and imagined.  I think that some phenomena are beyond the grasp of our rational minds and not to be dismissed lightly.  They may be rare, but I am not inclined to doubt them.  

There is room for mystery in our lives.  It is all around us.  We come from mystery, and will return to it.  And that is solid fact.


©  2021  Clifford Browder




Sunday, December 12, 2021

538. Watch Out for This Scam


                    BROWDERBOOKS


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I'm extending my sale.  All my historical novels are available in print at ten dollars each until then, for anyone who can come to my West Village apartment to pay for their purchase and collect it.

If you're interested, contact me by e-mail: 

        cliffbrowder@verizon.net

And now, au revoir and hasta la vista.


                Watch Out for This Scam


It came as a phone call to me.  A woman’s voice with a thick foreign accent identified the caller as Medicare and asked if I had received my new Medicare card.  No, I said, though only half understanding her English.  She then said they would mail it to me and verified my address, which she already had.  She said more, but I couldn’t understand her.  Annoyed, I finally hung up.

The moment I did so, I realized it had to be a scam.  Medicare would inform me of such a development — a new card, superseding the old one — by sending me a letter on official stationery.  And they would never entrust the notification to someone whose speech was almost incomprehensible.  She was probably in some Asian country like India or Bangladesh, where many of these scams originate.  Was I in danger?  Probably not, for I had given them no information, only confirmed what they already had.  But watch out for this scam.


I am beset with obvious scams, and with suspect phone calls and e-mails.  Any message with the words “urgent,” “this is your last chance,” “you are about to lose…,” and similar warnings prompt me to hang up or delete the e-mail.  Likewise e-mails confirming my purchase of some item for a huge sum, when I have made no such purchase.


And they repeat.  I have heard by phone from Amy at least six times.  She announces, “Hello, this is Amy with Medical Services.

Your name was given to us by a medical professional....”  What she then proposes I do not know, since I hang up at once.  Why am I suspicious?  She doesn’t address me by name; her message addresses anyone.  And she doesn’t name the “medical professional” involved.  Vague, vague, vague.  


These phony phone calls ring four times, then stop.  This tells me I’m simply a name on a long list.  If there’s no answer after four rings, the caller goes on to the next name on the list.


I sometimes wonder who these scammers are.  Does Amy know what she’s been hired to do?  Is it just a job to her, no matter how dubious?  Or is she self-employed and reaping any profits herself?  In any case, it's a wretched way to make a living, exploiting the good faith, vulnerability, or ignorance of others.





©  2021  Clifford Browder

Sunday, December 5, 2021

537. Portugal Beats the US!

 


 PORTUGAL  BEATS  THE  US!




No, not in soccer, but in good living.  The proof?  More educated immigrants go there than to the US.  And to other countries too, in preference to the US:


  • Canada
  • Costa Rica
  • Australia
  • New Zealand
  • Singapore                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           


Why do they prefer these countries to the US?  A host of reasons.


  • Better tax breaks, housing support, job placement support, etc.
  • Clearer and fairer visa procedures.
  • Lower cost of living.
  • Single-payer national health-care systems.
  • Better free public education.
  • Government support for having and raising children.


Who then comes to the US?  Desperate people fleeing poverty and violence. 


So there it is.  If you’re educated but inclined to move, why come to a country that

  • Bombs your native land
  • Calls you names because you’re not white
  • Has ruinously high student debt
  • Spends enormous sums on the military
  • Has health-care costs that have bankrupted people of limited means.


How do I know all this?  From a foreign-born friend, now a US citizen, who has traveled a lot and is very knowledgeable on the subject. 


The US is no longer the place where educated immigrants want to go.  Portugal and other countries are upstaging us.  In those countries newcomers are welcome and live better.


Foreigners still come here for a college education and graduate work, but if they want to emigrate, they go elsewhere.


Some Americans are suspicious of immigrants, even educated ones, and couldn’t care less if they go elsewhere.


Which is crazy.  These are the most desirable immigrants, often qualified for jobs we have trouble filling.  Desirable, and they go elsewhere. 


Our loss, and Portugal’s gain.  And Canada's and Costa Rica's.   

                        

                                   Crazy!


©  2021  Clifford Browder





Sunday, November 28, 2021

536. Lullaby: Another Snarkie.


Snarkies seem to be preferred, so 

here's another, a lullaby in -- of all

things! -- rhyme.  How traditional,

how quaint!



       Lullaby



Lullaby O my dear one

Sweet dreams and good night

May demons torment you

And your worries choke tight.


Hush now my darling

These hours are blessed

May nightmares besiege you

With fury and zest.


Close your eyes, rest your noggin

And your brain full of lead

If your bladder malfunctions

Please don’t wet the bed.


Lullaby and good night

Since I can’t wish you well

Sleep deep and forever

Dear lover from hell.



Appropriate for Valentine's Day, so maybe I'll republish it then.


©  2021  Clifford Browder


Sunday, November 21, 2021

535. Four Titters Crammed with Wisdom


Four Titters Crammed 

with Wisdom


Here is WISDOM crammed into three- 

and two-line Titters.  First, two that go 

together:



  Mind over Matter


“I’m not masturbating,”

Said the man in the phone booth.

“I’m having sex with a woman in Chicago.”



        Matter over Mind


Roaches in paradise.

Phone God, Porto-Potty answers.



And now another three-liner:



Pterodactyls


If you see one, you’re a poet.

Two, a visionary.

Three, a nut.



And finally, a six-liner:



Six Things That Keep Us from Suicide


A tight schedule.

Hope.

No gun.

No poison.

Hate to waste gas.

Diarrhea.




Coming soon:  Another Snarkie, a lullaby.

©  2021  Clifford Browder



Sunday, November 14, 2021

534. Cranky: A Grump.

 

          Cranky: A Grump



Of the unholy trinity, Titters, Grumps, and 

Snarkies, we've met a Titter and a Snarkie.  

Here now is a Grump.


                     Cranky



There’s a crank buried deep inside us

That we’re ashamed of, try to squelch.

What a waste of talent,

What a loss of fiendish joy!

For there are joys in being cranky, consider:


Time is on your side;

We all get crankier with age.


You don’t have to flash 

That ninny smile,

Limp, insipid, forced,

When others flash at you

That ninny smile,

Limp, insipid, forced.


You can love yourself ad nauseam,

Every foible, every crotchet, every quirk.


A known crank,

You will be avoided by do-gooders urging you 

To save baby seals, whales, the world,

When, snug in your own tight nest,

You don’t give a damn about 

Baby seals, whales, the world.


If in a weak moment

You perpetrate an act of kindness,

You will astound everyone

And reap unwonted praise.


So what if people call you

An oddity, a grouch?

Immune to derision,

You will enjoy yourself

Unconscionably

To your brazen heart’s content.



So feel free to express yourself.  If the

mood hits, be a Grump.  And above 

all, ENJOY IT.


Next time, for the sake of brevity, 

three-liners and two-liners absolutely 

crammed with wisdom.

©  2021  Clifford Browder

Sunday, November 7, 2021

533. Wishes for My Enemies. A Snarkie.

Wishes for My Enemies. A Snarkie.


Last time we talked about Titters,

Grumps, and Snarkies.  So now let's

do a Snarkie.


Never make an enemy of a writer; their 

revenge can be fierce. For instance this 

poem, which bears no dedication.



   Wishes for My Enemies


Bedbugs and constipation,

Irritable gut and fallen arches,

Relentless creditors,

Ruinous investments,

Disastrous infatuations,

Boredom, infinite and never ending

With a terrifying midnight awareness

Of their own irrelevance,

Their puniness

On this unfeeling earth.



Rather nasty, isn't it?  A real Snarkie.  

But that's not the end of it.  There are 

two more lines.



Fine.  But what if

My worst enemy is me?



So maybe now it's a Titter.  Certainly not 

a Snarkie.  To round things out, next time 

we'll do a Grump.



©  2021  Clifford Browder